Over the last couple of days I've felt a sense of unease. As I tried to identify the problem I thought about several matters, and after 2-3 days I've come to some replies.
Walk away from the crutches, even though its your best friend
First, I am fortunate enough to have a good companion in San Diego. However, it's crucial to know when you have to walk your path. Quite often, we lean on the shoulders of the others, and in the process, forget to learn what we should learn how to do ourselves. By way of example, I'm constantly hanging out together with himand we play video games. This is great fun, but recently after our LA trip I have felt a sense of waste after playing matches. I uninstalled my Heroes of the Storm bnet account and I have a lot more spare time on my hands. So the lesson is, learn when you have to develop your own strength, and have the courage to walk away from your best friend. He/she will understand, that you need the time to yourself to develop inner strength.
I've also learned that my day pick up skills are much better, and that I have a tendency to do much better in my. From time to time, you have to go out there and see the world on your own, rather than resenting others for"holding back you", when in actuality, you're the one which's doing it!
Seeing the silver lining in everything
For a child, I used to think that if I'm learning the piano in the afternoon, all of the other children are out there playing in the golden sunset! No! I felt a feeling of loss! Yet, nowadays, I'm grateful on some nights when I could just be at work and work to my heart's content. No family, no friends bugging me, nothing. Only me and my work. Sometimes I might feel like this is lonely and it is, but that is how it's for now, and I've learned to see it as a boon, I get to hangout with my friends once I need to, and possess my own time without being stressed by work or personal duties.
Being trendy with no"trying"
I've leverage the ability to be current thanks to Ekhart Tolle and I've discovered that when I am relaxed and unstressedI have a open vibe. People today talk to me. "What's that you are buying?" "Hey this elevator is slow huh?" I think that on weekdays, since so many individuals are worried, an unstressed, receptive energy contrasts nicely compared to all of the pent up energy that people see everyday. I am fortunate enough to have financial freedom at this stage in my life, and that I shall continue to station a cool, open vibe, even though I am working hard on the job.
Presence, and internal love When we judge others, in some ways we're also dealing with our own demons. Your presence of light is enough -- that alone can sustain you and put in love to the world. Sometimes our self gets in the way, and we out of the spark and magnificent of what is there to begin with.
Strive for the podryw w pracy best, judgement free of others
I used to judge others or"hate on them" when they're useless to my goals. I realized this is the wrong way to examine the entire world. Everyone is in their journey. In a lot of ways, my negativity towards them was actually at myself -- at my own inability to make things function. I must have sought out aid earlier, or acknowledged that I had to meet new people, instead of resenting my friends. You can't always change someone, however you can always adore them.
It's ok to be an asshole, sometimes our mistakes instruct us the way to arrive at the right solution
In order for me to "find peace".
Or reach a stage of approval, I had to undergo pain. The pain makes it possible to get to a point (hopefully) of throwing away the bags of the self.
Intimate relationships, enjoy all of the life has to offer you.
While I used to select the hottest women, I want the deepest connections in all areas of my life. Am I drawn to beautiful ladies? Absolutely. However, my fascination today is more than only a physical one. I find myself losing attraction for shallow beauty, and more in tune with inner beauty.
I am still attracted sexually to shallow beauty, but in terms of my relationships as well as an-ongoing kind of situation, I find myself valuing a gorgeous woman with great inner qualities too.